"The most personal tragedy in my life was James Dean, you know. I was nineteen years old, and I had such admiration for him," a tearful Hopper said in 1987. "I was haunted by the death of Dean, which had been the greatest emotional shock of my young life. He taught me so much. When he died, I felt cheated. I had dreams tied up in him, and suddenly, that was shattered. The alcohol and drugs brought me temporary escape. That was the first major thing that really affected me. It affected me for years after. I mean it really did. Even now I still… you know, I question. I mean, I can go to Europe, I’m going to Sweden, I go into a nightclub, and there’s James Dean, Humphrey Bogart, Marilyn Monroe on the wall. Going to Paris, there he is… and yet I just feel rather cheated personally. I feel cheated personally and I just… it just leaves me sort of empty and not…"